...because I RAN A MILE yesterday! In parts, admittedly, BUT HOLY CRAP A WHOLE MILE. I did the first half a mile straight through before I had to stop and walk (remember that bra/breathing/knee problem thing? yeah). And then I would walk at a fast pace for a song or so then run two tenths of a mile, walk again, run again, walk again, run again. I was on the treadmill for a total of 35 minutes. I have no idea how many calories I burned, but to be honest I really don't care. I'm just so damn proud of myself. I can't wait until I'm able to do a mile straight through. And then two miles! And then maybe a 5K, *squee*! I have never, ever been able to run a mile. I remember being humiliated in middle school because they made us do it and I was the last kid off the track and walked most of it. It took me over fifteen minutes or something ridiculous like that. Now I obviously am much slower than that now (I was running at just under 5mph last night) but I can't wait to get stronger and faster and be able to run longer distances. I'd say "HA, I TOLD you I'd be a runner", but you guys never doubted me. I only ever doubted myself. Well I am no longer giving power to my doubt, as Honore de Balzac would be thrilled to know.
I'm also proud of myself because of why I went running. For some reason in the middle of the afternoon yesterday I just got really depressed. I had accidentally eaten a lot of chocolate and candy yesterday without realizing it. I was angry with myself, and then the weird sudden depression on top of it was really making me feel like crap. I was tired, had to do laundry, and just wanted to crawl into bed and hide from knowing I'd have to post about it here. But instead, I changed my attitude. Remember how I said attitude is everything? I thought to myself "You feel like crap. You want to go to bed. Instead, go run a mile. Don't let your mistaken preconceptions stop you. The only thing stopping you is you. Go run a mile. You can do it!"
And I did it. And I feel great. Today, I've been so pumped up by my success last night that I have eaten healthy all day because I wanted to, not because I thought I needed to. I had a small bowl of cereal for breakfast, carrots with dressing and grapes as lunch, turkey and cheese roll-up as a snack, steamed salmon and broccoli with a cheesy baked potato for dinner, and two cookies for dessert. I'll probably have a banana as a snack later. By my count that's a serving of whole grains, three servings of dairy, two servings of protein, three servings of veggies, and three servings of fruit (I had two cups of grapes).
I did yoga when I woke up this morning and if I wasn't so sore from running I'd go for a walk. But today I'm going to take a short break from the exercise, plan out my day tomorrow, and relax knowing that I am awesome and capable of doing anything, making whatever changes I want to.
I feel so damn good.
PS: Can anybody give me good suggestions for running socks? Mine gave me blisters last night. :(